Well! Here I am writing my very first blog - after trying to do so for the last two years (am not all that lazy you know, just lazy ;) ) Now if you would ask me what dawned on me to finally write this ...Read on and you will know.
Its was no ordinary Friday and no ordinary black listed 13th - It was Friday the 13th 2012!!
The day started with the daily routine of tea followed by some maid nagging, cooking, packing and struggling to reach office on time. None of it is ever perfected by me for the last four years of my married life (that's another story to narrate though).
I reached office with those mixed feelings.. of what I did not know my self. I was suggesting my mind that my mood is fluctuating, I am feeling bloated yet was not really seeing any of those symptoms within. It felt like one of those Maths papers we answered in school. I did get all my sums right - yes I did! but I better pretend there is an equation I answered incorrectly - I guess we love bluffing ourselves sometimes (or most of the times ;) )
The day ended with some office work , lots of gossip and frequent bluffs to my self - after all sometimes I can also miss a day here or there like all my girlfriends around.
On the way back, I suggested my husband to get a test strip. He like a nice sober husband knowing that I would have a major mood off if results showed otherwise, suggested that we wait for another week before testing. I quietly agreed but I do want to know - NOW! After all I have already waited for weeks - haven't I ? :(
Well...moving on with the evening ...we headed out for dinner around 10. I insisted again and eeeeehooooo he agreed! He got me one and said that I should only test it next morning - Yes yes..absolutely, I agreed :)
We got back home and the TV was switched on instantly (for a change, I liked him touching the remote thinking he had forgotten). I dashed straight to check - I had those weird feelings mixed mixed and all mixed . Will I really be happy if it is positive? Why do I want to watt lagao my self ? Damn, who wants all that pain and headache ? Am I ready for a 3rd person between us - we are so happy you know! But the inquisitive in me was eager to know the result -THE RESULT (Thanks to years of schooling, results still excite us big time!!! )
I tested and ___________ (there is no smiley and expression I can fill in here :) ) it was positive. My feelings on seeing those two straight pink lines ? I don't know. I really don't know.
I opened the door assuming I would get time to think on how I can break this awaited news to my busy TV watching husband. Without a mind I opened the door and there he stood with questioning eyes!!! After all it was his big news too. He saw the strip and hugged me. That was a special hug :) We both jumped as if we had got candies from our favorite distant uncle.
That night while sleeping - I quietly prayed - May it be safe and healthy. I had said a bedtime prayer after ages.
How do I feel now? I dont know. I really dont know yet again. But I have smiled at myself after years. I am elated with the thought someone call my dearest husband dad. I imagine him looking at the baby's tiny fingers and freaking out. I imagine my father making faces to a kiddie and taking pride in spoiling the miniature figure.
Time will tell how much I will enjoy the process and motherhood and what stories I will have in my basket to contribute to other friends on the podium.
And ya..to ur question - Why am I finally writing this blog? I, like all concerned good mom-to-be went to the oldest grandmother accross the street when I got the big news- Google :) Google grandma suggested I start blogging - so here I go with my first blog :)
Here when am ending this blog , Google grandma just told me that my child's first heartbeat happened today. I hope and pray - May it be safe and healthy :)
Its was no ordinary Friday and no ordinary black listed 13th - It was Friday the 13th 2012!!
The day started with the daily routine of tea followed by some maid nagging, cooking, packing and struggling to reach office on time. None of it is ever perfected by me for the last four years of my married life (that's another story to narrate though).
I reached office with those mixed feelings.. of what I did not know my self. I was suggesting my mind that my mood is fluctuating, I am feeling bloated yet was not really seeing any of those symptoms within. It felt like one of those Maths papers we answered in school. I did get all my sums right - yes I did! but I better pretend there is an equation I answered incorrectly - I guess we love bluffing ourselves sometimes (or most of the times ;) )
The day ended with some office work , lots of gossip and frequent bluffs to my self - after all sometimes I can also miss a day here or there like all my girlfriends around.
On the way back, I suggested my husband to get a test strip. He like a nice sober husband knowing that I would have a major mood off if results showed otherwise, suggested that we wait for another week before testing. I quietly agreed but I do want to know - NOW! After all I have already waited for weeks - haven't I ? :(
Well...moving on with the evening ...we headed out for dinner around 10. I insisted again and eeeeehooooo he agreed! He got me one and said that I should only test it next morning - Yes yes..absolutely, I agreed :)
We got back home and the TV was switched on instantly (for a change, I liked him touching the remote thinking he had forgotten). I dashed straight to check - I had those weird feelings mixed mixed and all mixed . Will I really be happy if it is positive? Why do I want to watt lagao my self ? Damn, who wants all that pain and headache ? Am I ready for a 3rd person between us - we are so happy you know! But the inquisitive in me was eager to know the result -THE RESULT (Thanks to years of schooling, results still excite us big time!!! )
I tested and ___________ (there is no smiley and expression I can fill in here :) ) it was positive. My feelings on seeing those two straight pink lines ? I don't know. I really don't know.
I opened the door assuming I would get time to think on how I can break this awaited news to my busy TV watching husband. Without a mind I opened the door and there he stood with questioning eyes!!! After all it was his big news too. He saw the strip and hugged me. That was a special hug :) We both jumped as if we had got candies from our favorite distant uncle.
That night while sleeping - I quietly prayed - May it be safe and healthy. I had said a bedtime prayer after ages.
How do I feel now? I dont know. I really dont know yet again. But I have smiled at myself after years. I am elated with the thought someone call my dearest husband dad. I imagine him looking at the baby's tiny fingers and freaking out. I imagine my father making faces to a kiddie and taking pride in spoiling the miniature figure.
Time will tell how much I will enjoy the process and motherhood and what stories I will have in my basket to contribute to other friends on the podium.
And ya..to ur question - Why am I finally writing this blog? I, like all concerned good mom-to-be went to the oldest grandmother accross the street when I got the big news- Google :) Google grandma suggested I start blogging - so here I go with my first blog :)
Here when am ending this blog , Google grandma just told me that my child's first heartbeat happened today. I hope and pray - May it be safe and healthy :)
